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Amber Groomes,Ph.D. (she/her)'s avatar

“What a mess.” Ugh. Thanks for sharing such a moment of human-ness. This story reminds me a bit of how I cried uncontrollably at my uncle’s funeral, which was shortly after I had lost my father. We were so distraught over my dad that we had not had a funeral or anything yet. Going to my uncles funeral completely triggered me, so even though I wasn’t actually that close to the man who had just passed, I was inconsolable about my father 🥴 It felt so wrong to be crying about the wrong person, but I had no control over it. Messy.

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Thank you for sharing. There is something about a funeral or celebrate of life that I think puts us in touch with those tears.

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

I am so sorry for the loss of your cousin. Sometimes we are just triggered.

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Victoria's avatar

If I was on my own right now, I think I'd make a squeezed-out owwwww-howl-keening sound of empathy-resonance. You've captured the ugly conflicted messiness of emotion...I can't call it grief because it's more than that word...The Human-ness-mess that others who haven't experienced something similar..yet..don't know how to deal with us, or receive our tears or us...

I continue to be awed by your husband and huge hugs hon.

Your ability to decipher this out...well, no words.

I just feel a little less alone in my messy human-ness now. Feeling beyond the obvious.

Thank you for this collaboration contribution and teaming up with Anne. Thanks to Anne BIG hug!

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Sarah Coomber's avatar

I appreciate your vulnerability in sharing this experience. It reminds me how sometimes our emotions help us convey important messages that our minds would have us keep inside.

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Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Thank you! Yes. Sometimes the emotions just come.

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Cheyenne Hardy's avatar

Thank you for your vulnerability. I really enjoyed reading this and am sending hugs your way. ❤️

You have inspired me to write about my own tears: I CRIED IN FRONT OF MY PATIENT ( https://open.substack.com/pub/cheyennehardy/p/i-cried-in-front-of-my-patient?r=32uost&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true )

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