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Mel Erwin's avatar

You are completing your journey Kristina. This is an important moving moment. For you. For your husband. I wish you both all the rays of sunshine and health. Thank you for your insight and beauty. x

Mary Lynn Garner's avatar

Beautifully written Kristina. Only someone who has never been there can say there is no way you can fall apart and pull together at the same time, but you can, and you do, and you will.

Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Thank you, Mary Lynn. This means a lot to me. Falling apart and pulling together. That is exactly where I am at.

John McManus's avatar

Hi. Thanks for your site I was doing fine before, during and and after Waldenstrom’s Macroglobulimia. I am 81 yo. Did not phase me for a second. Two years later. I have advancing Prostate Cancer and I need Treatment. Now I am pissed off, as Hell. Damn it. John

Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

It’s strange how our reactions to cancer are so individual. One cancer was no problem and another was the nemesis. I also feel the anger, sometimes more and sometimes less. Sending you healing thoughts.

Aileen Terwilliger's avatar

I know the feeling. My husband has a rare ILC Breast Cancer.

Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

That is terrible! And even so rare in men. If you would like to connect about male breast cancer, caregiving, or anything - please send me a DM.

Aileen Terwilliger's avatar

I will and Thank You ❤️

Joy V. 🌵's avatar

This was so beautiful. If you have time, I’d love to know your method for keeping notes/referring to these memories.

Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Hi Joy! I have no system! The memories bubble up inside me and then one starts pestering me until I put it on the page. It is an entirely emotional exercise. Thank you for reading!

Mark Stevenson's avatar

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Victoria's avatar

I feel this liminal space, Kristina - beautifully shared. The seasons and changes. The growth— where we expect it or beyond our control. Reconnecting, baring yourself to the life within it again. It's all so poignant and full of humanity. There's no definitive answer of what will be.

Your article makes me think that I'm heartened and still concerned, yet comfortable in this moment because I'm able to connect mindfully to the here and now; I'm balanced.

Kristina Adams Waldorf, MD's avatar

Thank you, Victoria! You have captured it even more beautifully! This is even more than I hoped to accomplish. I appreciate you reading and taking the time to comment so much.

Victoria's avatar

Always welcome, hon! xo